Friday, January 23, 2015

'Patience' is NOT my middle name.

Psalm 37:7 (nlt)

"Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act"

Psalm 37 is one of my favorite chapters in Psalms.  SO many truths that I need to apply to my life every single day. 

I struggle big time with waiting and being still.  I am high energy, very organized and I like to plan things out in great detail.  But when I am waiting for something, I am not in control.  I am not able to plan for things that I have no control over and frequently feel very frustrated by this.  

My husband and I are knee deep in an international adoption trying to bring our son home.  I do not have any close friends who have adopted internationally.  I have not had anyone to really talk to about my struggles, frustrations and worries who really understands what I have been going through.  Don't get me wrong, we have so many supportive friends and family members who have been so encouraging during our adoption thus far but none of them have any experience or personal advice to offer other than a listening ear.

About 2 weeks ago I discovered another adoptive family who is using the same adoption agency as us, who lives in our town and is adopting a son from the same country as us.  And get this, they are requesting the same age range that we are! I was so excited and just had to meet this Mama.  We got to meet last night and what a joy it was.  We chatted over 2 1/2 hrs and both got to share the heaviness we both feel for our little men who are waiting for us.  None of our circumstances changed during our conversation but it was so encouraging and uplifting to talk to someone else going through the same issues as us and share the same love for someone we haven't even met yet.  

I have been praying for God to send an adoptive family that we could be-friend and build a relationship with.  I am so glad that I waited for His leading.  Sure, I could have been all gung-ho and started looking for another family to build a relationship with but I would rather wait for God's prompting and leading.  Only He could have led our family to this other adoptive family.  We have so much in common and are only 2 months apart in our adoption time table.  

Waiting is not easy but it is necessary.  When we have to wait for something, we appreciate the blessing so much more.  I don't know what you are waiting for right now.  A new job, healing from an illness, salvation for a family member, a positive pregnancy test, direction from God or even healing in your marriage.  We all are waiting for something.  Me, I'm waiting for our adoption to be finalized so we can bring our son home.  All I know is its hard to be patient but God's plans are always best. His timing is impeccable. He is never late or early, always on time.   

Psalm 37:7 needs to be tattooed on my forehead so that every time I look in the mirror I am reminded to chill out, be still and wait patiently for Gods timing, not mine. 

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